E
eben
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Well as you may have gathered, I'm going for good now. This post is here to clear up any doubts as to my departure. I feel the need to do this because I have no doubt whatsoever that a certain character will put a positive spin on my leaving. I want to nip that in the bud.
This post will help my old friends understand my reasons for going, but also will serve to show the new people going to CE PvP exactly what they are letting themselves in for.
First, some background. I was in Nazgul before Killgorde quit that guild and created Cutting Edge. He invited me and several others to quit Nazgul and join him. I decided to join CE on the promise of quality RvR. It turned out to be a good move in the early days. We were "having a blast" as Killgorde always liked to say we should. It was great fun marauding the albion frontiers.
Then, as in every guild, there was some signs of tension. There was a run in with Derianna. Now Derianna is a fine healer, but he is a perfectionist and can get quite upset if you spoil his game plan. One evening in Sauvage, we happened across a bunch of blue and green cons. My first reaction was to use AOE poison. This happened to break Derianna's AOE mezz spell and gave us a harder fight than we should have had. Well we all make mistakes in the heat of the battle and I accept that. What lit the blue touch paper was that Derianna had a real go at me, threatening me if I ever used my AOE in his presence again. Now I can listen to criticism, but I do not take kindly to threats, especially as I pay £6 a month to play a GAME. I apologised for my mistake, and to credit Derianna he apologised for going overboard. I made an extra effort after that to use AOE on special occasions only (keeps, milegates). I certainly had no further complaints about it.
Then, another evening, we happen upon a dozen albs at AMG Odin's. We almost ran into them, but I managed to root almost all of them with my insta-root. Unfortunately, Pibe unleashed his AOE and the freed albs wiped us out. Now don't get me wrong, Pibe is a great guy and I have no quarrel with him. But I asked in a polite fashion if he noticed my root. What he said was that he didn't care for my root and was only interested if I had stun. If I didn't like it I should not party with him. I know he's Italian, but there's no other interpretation in what he said. His english is quite good. Well given that I had a public dressing down by Derianna for fucking up, it seemed a little unfair that I get another dressing down for daring to question another (and I was far more polite). Actually, to be honest I was pretty pissed off. To have a guild mate tell you where to go like that upset me. So what did I do? Well I decided to seek another opinion on the matter. So I approached Killgorde and asked him. This is the conversation (including the bits with Pibe). Read it and see what you make of it:
http://homepage.ntlworld.com/brian.hunton/CE1.jpg
http://homepage.ntlworld.com/brian.hunton/CE2.jpg
http://homepage.ntlworld.com/brian.hunton/CE3.jpg
http://homepage.ntlworld.com/brian.hunton/CE4.jpg
http://homepage.ntlworld.com/brian.hunton/CE5.jpg
Some comments about these:
- I showed these to independent people and the polite end of things describing Killgorde's behaviour are patronising and condescending.
- you can see I'm upset by Pibe's remarks. I didn't mind the mistake. It was more the "I don't need you, don't party me".
- he accuses me and Derianna as being hotheads.
- I didn't like this because I don't sound off at people like Derianna. You would never catch me calling Barbar an idiot, for example. I have asked several people and they disagree with Killgorde...Derianna and I are not exactly the same.
- I'll grant that Killgorde does say some conciliatory things like saying we all fuck up. But he fails to appreciate the not so subtle point I was making, that it is hypocrisy to allow some guild members like Derianna flame me, yet not allow me to humbly ask others about their mistakes.
- Killgorde seizes the opportunity to flame me too. He resorts to offensive remarks about diplomacy and the such. When it is clear he is not prepared (or incapable) of reasoned debate, he makes a crass suggestion and leaves. What a GM!
Killgorde's response really pissed me off. While I can see some attempts at mediation, on the whole he went off the rails. I think he was upset that I AOEd at a keep defence rather than heal him. Well fair enough Killgorde that may be the case, but you should know by now the number of times I have forced parties back from the doors at keeps with poison...it's what I'm good at. Also there were 2 other healers in the party, so don't pick on me alone. Furthermore, you're not in the habit of protecting me of late. There's been a recent trend of albs gunning for me. But where were you to guard me? How can you expect me to keep constant eye on your health and repel attackers with my main weapon if you cannot be trusted to watch my health either? Do unto others mate.
I decided that this situation was pretty shitty. Killgorde had been patronising and rude. The guild had some clear double standards. So I quit and lived on Prydwen for a while. Playing alts is fun (surely the aim of the game), but I did miss RvR in Excal. I canvassed opinion to find out what was being said in my absence, hoping that some regret would be shown on Killgorde's behalf. I asked two friends to find out what people were saying (I state categorically that I put these two guys up to this...I apologise for showing these but they prove some points):
http://homepage.ntlworld.com/brian.hunton/preach1.jpg
- in this one there is a grain of truth. Kill did ask me to consider my actions...that I do not deny. But he is lying to say I did not accept my errors. He should ask Derianna if I apologised for the Sauvage incident for example. I don't know where he got the bit about refusing to acknowledge pissing people off. It's all bullshit. I never go out of my way to fuck people off, something Killgorde is a master at. How he can have the temerity to describe myself and Derianna as impulsivley emotional I do not know. Another characteristic trait displayed there: jugdmental (and also rude).
http://homepage.ntlworld.com/brian.hunton/preach2.jpg
This one's a classic. Caught with his pants down. Resorting to lying now. Why? Perhaps he realised I had friends and it would do him no good to slag me off a lot.
So some examples of deceit and spin used by our glorious leader to paint the picture he wants. He does it a lot. When Attle quit recently, Killgorde had to do him down by calling him an item whore over the legion raid. Why doesn't he just let sleeping dogs lie and stop being so vindictive? Attle has gone so stop being rude about him. More examples later.
Back to the plot. One evening I was doing a cash exchange and I happened upon Cubby. I asked him how things fared and he said that almost all the guild wanted me back. That was uplifting news. Of course I could not return yet, but when he said that Killgorde had stated that the door was still open I decided to return. After all, that's the nearest I would get for an apology from him.
So I returned and got back to RvR with Ebeneezer, but I also played alts too. Now I'll always maintain that the game is for fun, not for anybody's personal agenda. If I want to play alts then I will. Others in the guild play alts too. Everyone was fine, well almost everyone. I noticed that Killgorde was reluctant to talk to me. So I decided to ask what the problem was (using alt named Giselle):
http://homepage.ntlworld.com/brian.hunton/Eben1.jpg
http://homepage.ntlworld.com/brian.hunton/Eben2.jpg
http://homepage.ntlworld.com/brian.hunton/Eben3.jpg
http://homepage.ntlworld.com/brian.hunton/Eben4.jpg
http://homepage.ntlworld.com/brian.hunton/Eben5.jpg
http://homepage.ntlworld.com/brian.hunton/Eben6.jpg
http://homepage.ntlworld.com/brian.hunton/Eben7.jpg
http://homepage.ntlworld.com/brian.hunton/Eben8.jpg
http://homepage.ntlworld.com/brian.hunton/Eben9.jpg
http://homepage.ntlworld.com/brian.hunton/Eben10.jpg
Now you can see what has prompted my departure. I cannot be having anything to do with such a self-centred, condescending, manipulative and childish person. It all made perfect sense now. Killgorde was sulking that Ebeneezer was not there for him all the time. He once asked me to be his "personal physician" a long time ago. He wants me to buff him. He wants me to follow him around like a lapdog.
Again the lies are there. He says I do no RvR. That's bollocks. In fact we were in Albion together defending keeps the day before. With Jimli remember? Convenient memory is when you want to put a guilt trip on someone. People (enemies included) will vouch for my presence.
He has no time to listen to me, but rather embarks on his own mission statement and his belief that I don't conform to it. His abhorrence of alts is clear. Well perhaps he should ban all alts then instead of moaning at me? Perhaps he should delete his own alt (named Hisownstupidity)? Perhaps he should stop being a hypocrite and discussing levelling alts with trebuchets on the PvP server?
Now I said I was tired of Eben eating dirt and I wanted a change, so I levelled my runie. What's it go to do with anyone which character I play? I like my nuker and want to try it in RvR. Who cares if I die more, let me find out. Don't moan at me because I'm not there 24/7 giving you might of the deep.
He says he needed Ebeneezer in Hibernia but is afraid to ask. Doesn't stop him trying the manipulative guilt trip saying things like it's too late, moment gone. I'm not falling for that.
This post will help my old friends understand my reasons for going, but also will serve to show the new people going to CE PvP exactly what they are letting themselves in for.
First, some background. I was in Nazgul before Killgorde quit that guild and created Cutting Edge. He invited me and several others to quit Nazgul and join him. I decided to join CE on the promise of quality RvR. It turned out to be a good move in the early days. We were "having a blast" as Killgorde always liked to say we should. It was great fun marauding the albion frontiers.
Then, as in every guild, there was some signs of tension. There was a run in with Derianna. Now Derianna is a fine healer, but he is a perfectionist and can get quite upset if you spoil his game plan. One evening in Sauvage, we happened across a bunch of blue and green cons. My first reaction was to use AOE poison. This happened to break Derianna's AOE mezz spell and gave us a harder fight than we should have had. Well we all make mistakes in the heat of the battle and I accept that. What lit the blue touch paper was that Derianna had a real go at me, threatening me if I ever used my AOE in his presence again. Now I can listen to criticism, but I do not take kindly to threats, especially as I pay £6 a month to play a GAME. I apologised for my mistake, and to credit Derianna he apologised for going overboard. I made an extra effort after that to use AOE on special occasions only (keeps, milegates). I certainly had no further complaints about it.
Then, another evening, we happen upon a dozen albs at AMG Odin's. We almost ran into them, but I managed to root almost all of them with my insta-root. Unfortunately, Pibe unleashed his AOE and the freed albs wiped us out. Now don't get me wrong, Pibe is a great guy and I have no quarrel with him. But I asked in a polite fashion if he noticed my root. What he said was that he didn't care for my root and was only interested if I had stun. If I didn't like it I should not party with him. I know he's Italian, but there's no other interpretation in what he said. His english is quite good. Well given that I had a public dressing down by Derianna for fucking up, it seemed a little unfair that I get another dressing down for daring to question another (and I was far more polite). Actually, to be honest I was pretty pissed off. To have a guild mate tell you where to go like that upset me. So what did I do? Well I decided to seek another opinion on the matter. So I approached Killgorde and asked him. This is the conversation (including the bits with Pibe). Read it and see what you make of it:
http://homepage.ntlworld.com/brian.hunton/CE1.jpg
http://homepage.ntlworld.com/brian.hunton/CE2.jpg
http://homepage.ntlworld.com/brian.hunton/CE3.jpg
http://homepage.ntlworld.com/brian.hunton/CE4.jpg
http://homepage.ntlworld.com/brian.hunton/CE5.jpg
Some comments about these:
- I showed these to independent people and the polite end of things describing Killgorde's behaviour are patronising and condescending.
- you can see I'm upset by Pibe's remarks. I didn't mind the mistake. It was more the "I don't need you, don't party me".
- he accuses me and Derianna as being hotheads.
- I didn't like this because I don't sound off at people like Derianna. You would never catch me calling Barbar an idiot, for example. I have asked several people and they disagree with Killgorde...Derianna and I are not exactly the same.
- I'll grant that Killgorde does say some conciliatory things like saying we all fuck up. But he fails to appreciate the not so subtle point I was making, that it is hypocrisy to allow some guild members like Derianna flame me, yet not allow me to humbly ask others about their mistakes.
- Killgorde seizes the opportunity to flame me too. He resorts to offensive remarks about diplomacy and the such. When it is clear he is not prepared (or incapable) of reasoned debate, he makes a crass suggestion and leaves. What a GM!
Killgorde's response really pissed me off. While I can see some attempts at mediation, on the whole he went off the rails. I think he was upset that I AOEd at a keep defence rather than heal him. Well fair enough Killgorde that may be the case, but you should know by now the number of times I have forced parties back from the doors at keeps with poison...it's what I'm good at. Also there were 2 other healers in the party, so don't pick on me alone. Furthermore, you're not in the habit of protecting me of late. There's been a recent trend of albs gunning for me. But where were you to guard me? How can you expect me to keep constant eye on your health and repel attackers with my main weapon if you cannot be trusted to watch my health either? Do unto others mate.
I decided that this situation was pretty shitty. Killgorde had been patronising and rude. The guild had some clear double standards. So I quit and lived on Prydwen for a while. Playing alts is fun (surely the aim of the game), but I did miss RvR in Excal. I canvassed opinion to find out what was being said in my absence, hoping that some regret would be shown on Killgorde's behalf. I asked two friends to find out what people were saying (I state categorically that I put these two guys up to this...I apologise for showing these but they prove some points):
http://homepage.ntlworld.com/brian.hunton/preach1.jpg
- in this one there is a grain of truth. Kill did ask me to consider my actions...that I do not deny. But he is lying to say I did not accept my errors. He should ask Derianna if I apologised for the Sauvage incident for example. I don't know where he got the bit about refusing to acknowledge pissing people off. It's all bullshit. I never go out of my way to fuck people off, something Killgorde is a master at. How he can have the temerity to describe myself and Derianna as impulsivley emotional I do not know. Another characteristic trait displayed there: jugdmental (and also rude).
http://homepage.ntlworld.com/brian.hunton/preach2.jpg
This one's a classic. Caught with his pants down. Resorting to lying now. Why? Perhaps he realised I had friends and it would do him no good to slag me off a lot.
So some examples of deceit and spin used by our glorious leader to paint the picture he wants. He does it a lot. When Attle quit recently, Killgorde had to do him down by calling him an item whore over the legion raid. Why doesn't he just let sleeping dogs lie and stop being so vindictive? Attle has gone so stop being rude about him. More examples later.
Back to the plot. One evening I was doing a cash exchange and I happened upon Cubby. I asked him how things fared and he said that almost all the guild wanted me back. That was uplifting news. Of course I could not return yet, but when he said that Killgorde had stated that the door was still open I decided to return. After all, that's the nearest I would get for an apology from him.
So I returned and got back to RvR with Ebeneezer, but I also played alts too. Now I'll always maintain that the game is for fun, not for anybody's personal agenda. If I want to play alts then I will. Others in the guild play alts too. Everyone was fine, well almost everyone. I noticed that Killgorde was reluctant to talk to me. So I decided to ask what the problem was (using alt named Giselle):
http://homepage.ntlworld.com/brian.hunton/Eben1.jpg
http://homepage.ntlworld.com/brian.hunton/Eben2.jpg
http://homepage.ntlworld.com/brian.hunton/Eben3.jpg
http://homepage.ntlworld.com/brian.hunton/Eben4.jpg
http://homepage.ntlworld.com/brian.hunton/Eben5.jpg
http://homepage.ntlworld.com/brian.hunton/Eben6.jpg
http://homepage.ntlworld.com/brian.hunton/Eben7.jpg
http://homepage.ntlworld.com/brian.hunton/Eben8.jpg
http://homepage.ntlworld.com/brian.hunton/Eben9.jpg
http://homepage.ntlworld.com/brian.hunton/Eben10.jpg
Now you can see what has prompted my departure. I cannot be having anything to do with such a self-centred, condescending, manipulative and childish person. It all made perfect sense now. Killgorde was sulking that Ebeneezer was not there for him all the time. He once asked me to be his "personal physician" a long time ago. He wants me to buff him. He wants me to follow him around like a lapdog.
Again the lies are there. He says I do no RvR. That's bollocks. In fact we were in Albion together defending keeps the day before. With Jimli remember? Convenient memory is when you want to put a guilt trip on someone. People (enemies included) will vouch for my presence.
He has no time to listen to me, but rather embarks on his own mission statement and his belief that I don't conform to it. His abhorrence of alts is clear. Well perhaps he should ban all alts then instead of moaning at me? Perhaps he should delete his own alt (named Hisownstupidity)? Perhaps he should stop being a hypocrite and discussing levelling alts with trebuchets on the PvP server?
Now I said I was tired of Eben eating dirt and I wanted a change, so I levelled my runie. What's it go to do with anyone which character I play? I like my nuker and want to try it in RvR. Who cares if I die more, let me find out. Don't moan at me because I'm not there 24/7 giving you might of the deep.
He says he needed Ebeneezer in Hibernia but is afraid to ask. Doesn't stop him trying the manipulative guilt trip saying things like it's too late, moment gone. I'm not falling for that.