Rant Dropping an Ultimatum...on deities *frown*

[old.Tohtori]

I'm bored. REALLY bored. Of everything, work, life(well, there's plenty of that...), drinking, parties, people, santamas, ...everything!

Seriously everything.

Everything is the same, nothing changes, it's just ticktock of the clock and rubbing my cock.

If i was built that way, i'd end myself right here. Sadly can't and wouldn't. Would've could've should've, i know.

Anyway, as i am bored, i'm dropping an ultimatum to any deity out there.

Timelimit; 24 hours, midnight tomorrow, sunday/monday night.
Mission; show up, put up(meow), change my life, make something happen.

Atleast i'll get confirmation on something and can be bored of something else.

*sits down*

Did i mention everything is f*cking boring?

 

[Bugz]

Life is only as boring as you make it!

 

[old.Tohtori]

Life is only as boring as you make it!

No...it's not.

It's boring by default

 

[Bugz]

Well I don't know about you but I'm having a blast at the moment and I will have a blast in the future too

I'm sure others will agree (in regards to themselves ofc).

 

[old.Tohtori]

Well I don't know about you but I'm having a blast at the moment and I will have a blast in the future too

I'm sure others will agree (in regards to themselves ofc).

Just wait for it. You'll get bored too, eventually, everyone does.

 

[Olgaline]

I sence .........

Spoiler

 

[Bugz]

Just wait for it. You'll get bored too, eventually, everyone does.

Haha.

Generalizing your own life on others isn't going to help much!

I'll let others handle it from here...

 

[old.Tohtori]

Haha.

Generalizing your own life on others isn't going to help much!

I'll let others handle it from here...

Well, you go ahead.

Jsut let us know when your puppylove runs to the ditch

Olga, might be right.

 

[Mey]

"When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be." - Lao Tzu

 

[Imgormiel]

I'm bored. REALLY bored. Of everything, work, life(well, there's plenty of that...), drinking, parties, people, santamas, ...everything!

Seriously everything.

Everything is the same, nothing changes, it's just ticktock of the clock and rubbing my cock.

If i was built that way, i'd end myself right here. Sadly can't and wouldn't. Would've could've should've, i know.

Anyway, as i am bored, i'm dropping an ultimatum to any deity out there.

Timelimit; 24 hours, midnight tomorrow, sunday/monday night.
Mission; show up, put up(meow), change my life, make something happen.

Atleast i'll get confirmation on something and can be bored of something else.

*sits down*

Did i mention everything is f*cking boring?

What's brought this on Toht?

 

[old.Tohtori]

What's brought this on Toht?

Boredom

It's got to do with "seeing all i want", i guess, which caused some naysay among members here..for some reason...and doing everything ive' set out to do(which isn't much).

I'm just, everything seems so "meh", but not in a suicidal way, more of a "yawn" way, but not as a "this is crap" way, good things, just, don't get exited

 

[gohan]

im bored too :< been out 4 nights this week

and still bored

i think i might go and live in the jungle like ray mears, but then im lazy

so i wont


so i'll just sit here



bored


maybe paly fifa


then go to bed

then be bored tommoro

 

[old.Tohtori]

See? Gohan knows what i mean.

It's like "dumdidum, oh look, time for my regulated sleep to get to the regulated work to get regulated money to pay for a regulated roof over my regulated bed i regulatedly sleep in"

And sometimes do the regulated "social" thing.

 

[gohan]

See? Gohan knows what i mean.

It's like "dumdidum, oh look, time for my regulated sleep to get to the regulated work to get regulated money to pay for a regulated roof over my regulated bed i regulatedly sleep in"

And sometimes do the regulated "social" thing.

ye, robot socioty :< i want to be a real life robin hood

but the police said i can't :<

 

[old.Tohtori]

Aye, basically it's the rules and regulations that limit how interesting life could be.

Fallout world, zombie world...in any way hollywood...oh yes, even for a week.

Hell, you can't even be a superhero even if it would do society good.

 

[gohan]

Aye, basically it's the rules and regulations that limit how interesting life could be.

Fallout world, zombie world...in any way hollywood...oh yes, even for a week.

Hell, you can't even be a superhero even if it would do society good.

ye it would acctaully be like the incredibles or hancock, omg you saved my life i didnt want to be saved, i have a broken leg cos im not dead im suing you




basicly if i could walk around with a big sword on my back id be very very happy

 

[Imgormiel]

Boredom

It's got to do with "seeing all i want", i guess, which caused some naysay among members here..for some reason...and doing everything ive' set out to do(which isn't much).

I'm just, everything seems so "meh", but not in a suicidal way, more of a "yawn" way, but not as a "this is crap" way, good things, just, don't get exited

And what is it that you want Toht?

 

[Amanita]

Doesn't an ultimatum involve a consquence of this not happening?

What would your consequence be? I must know before I make myself known as your new goddess.

 

[old.Tohtori]

And what is it that you want Toht?

Well...one example would be to be dumb for a week. Not think. I bet that's easy living, you know, ignorance is bliss.

I'd like for something to happen, it's been a year of NOTHING happening.

Well...visited barcelona and friend got married but...nothing really happened. Hell, one day i barcelona and i was at home like...home home.

I guess i could go to scotland and do some dishwashing(etc) jobs to pay for a roof over my head to get some idea, write a book or something. Would't cure the boredom of life though.

The thing is, too, that i've lived almost a good 30 years....but if immortality is taken out of the picture...modern medicine...i'm not even 1/3rd done

Doesn't an ultimatum involve a consquence of this not happening?

What would your consequence be? I must know before I make myself known as your new goddess.

Lack of belief i guess since, well, while one persons belief can't hurt if lost, it can't hurt to have one extra. Kinda like having a useless item with one extra healthpoint and ending up in that fight where you win by one healthpoint.

Good point by the way, nice. Very nice.

 

[Imgormiel]

Well...one example would be to be dumb for a week. Not think. I bet that's easy living, you know, ignorance is bliss.

I'd like for something to happen, it's been a year of NOTHING happening.

Well...visited barcelona and friend got married but...nothing really happened. Hell, one day i barcelona and i was at home like...home home.

I guess i could go to scotland and do some dishwashing(etc) jobs to pay for a roof over my head to get some idea, write a book or something. Would't cure the boredom of life though.

The thing is, too, that i've lived almost a good 30 years....but if immortality is taken out of the picture...modern medicine...i'm not even 1/3rd done



Lack of belief i guess since, well, while one persons belief can't hurt if lost, it can't hurt to have one extra. Kinda like having a useless item with one extra healthpoint and ending up in that fight where you win by one healthpoint.

Good point by the way, nice. Very nice.

Seems you and I have something in common. The difference is I am still grieving over the death of my father. It's funny how things come together over a short period of time. Take a look at me for example. After I left my parents I spent almost 15 years in penury. Despite my efforts, others sought to thwart what I could make better on my own and for a short while I succeeded. I don't have much, and I like the fact that I don't want it either. But my dreams, as small as they are, seemed offensive to other people.

Now, I have this chance, but it cost me two people, and the honour of three families to get it. Seems a very high price and one that I am today still paying. I defended a woman whom I thought was honourable and to the point where I disowned my own family - I could say more but what's the point, it's in the past. I regret that now - bitterly, she wasn't worth the value I put on her. And in some respects, I feel that life and people have been testing me - to the point of extreme. But I can live with that. But the point is, after that end, I was bored and I have been bored for some four years. I am still figuring out the phrase 'I and we are done' and it's not as simple as you would think.

Now when I am tested, I can laugh at it, because I have had thrown at me what I believe that life has bested it's tests at me and I have been given a new start. I know what it means, and that I have to leave to make again what should have been and not what is, blah yeah, very esoterical and somewhat pretentious, but the thing is Toht, you are right in what you say. It's the small things that matter, they make a bigger life. I have to make anew and not make amends. I cannot change yesterday by changing what needs to be today.

Hitler in his blind sighted stupidity believed that the mistakes of the first world war were made by decisions made by others and to realise what his dream was, he had to rectify the past, we all know from the past now that indeed was wrong and millions of people paid for it. Yet making the mistakes of the past is what makes us human. Seriously a fucked up proposition but it's true.

This year I was given a chance, I did everything that I could have dreamed of doing and I did it alone. But that doesn't cure my grief and what I did nor the hurt I brought to other people in doing what I thought was needed of me at the time. Now I have to live with the weather, a metaphor if you will and I must make my choices pure of heart.

In the same respect, I believe, from what you have told us, you have been given a chance to make anew. Do it Toht.

 

[Amanita]

Lack of belief i guess since, well, while one persons belief can't hurt if lost, it can't hurt to have one extra. Kinda like having a useless item with one extra healthpoint and ending up in that fight where you win by one healthpoint.

Good point by the way, nice. Very nice.

Thats not dire enough for me to make an appearance.

I demand a better ultimatum

But seriously, if you're that bored go do something about it. Pick a new hobby, something you'd never have considered doing? The gods help those who help themselves?

 

[Shagrat]

I think this kind of thing hits everyone at some point. I am going through a similar mental process at the moment. Woke up one day and thought.

weekdays, i get up, go to work, come home, eat, do something, sleep
weekends i get up, mess about with my kids, sleep

once a month I get paid a pittance which gets swallowed up by every other leech in my life and I get left with enough to get to work for another month.

Im 36 now, so ive got another 30 years of this?

Its not a situation that I can see anyway for me to change (well not legally anyway) so do I just sit here and go through the motions, buying the occasional lottery ticket for a quick cash bail out?

My problem is I have a wife and kids so I cant just fuck off and live on a kibbutz somewhere for 2 years to find myself, but atm its only the wife and kids that give my life any kind of meaning.

It's all so damn confusing, its easier to just stay in the same rut......

meh!

 

[old.Tohtori]

Imgormiel, its not really about making anew, i've been in same situation for years. It's kind of "start even something", or some such. Really hard to explain. You get it, but obviously from a different viewpoint. I'd kind of want something to be f*cked up to get my mind off..nothing.

'nita, you couldn't handle being my goddess anyway

Shagrat, aye, right down the alley. Guess i've got my freedom, of sorts. Need two more years atleast to get "free of debt", i can imagine being REALLY bored by then.

 

[Amanita]

Probably not, the long distance goddessing rarely ends well.

 

[Imgormiel]

I think this kind of thing hits everyone at some point. I am going through a similar mental process at the moment. Woke up one day and thought.

weekdays, i get up, go to work, come home, eat, do something, sleep
weekends i get up, mess about with my kids, sleep

once a month I get paid a pittance which gets swallowed up by every other leech in my life and I get left with enough to get to work for another month.

Im 36 now, so ive got another 30 years of this?

Its not a situation that I can see anyway for me to change (well not legally anyway) so do I just sit here and go through the motions, buying the occasional lottery ticket for a quick cash bail out?

My problem is I have a wife and kids so I cant just fuck off and live on a kibbutz somewhere for 2 years to find myself, but atm its only the wife and kids that give my life any kind of meaning.

It's all so damn confusing, its easier to just stay in the same rut......

meh!

Yeah, save it gets more shit with each year

 

[old.Tohtori]

Probably not, the long distance goddessing rarely ends well.

Aye with the, you know and the, well...what i need is a good, decent, local goddess. But somehow, always end up with a long distance goddess with some mental problem

 

[Imgormiel]

Imgormiel, its not really about making anew, i've been in same situation for years. It's kind of "start even something", or some such. Really hard to explain. You get it, but obviously from a different viewpoint. I'd kind of want something to be f*cked up to get my mind off..nothing.

'nita, you couldn't handle being my goddess anyway

Shagrat, aye, right down the alley. Guess i've got my freedom, of sorts. Need two more years atleast to get "free of debt", i can imagine being REALLY bored by then.

In common is not the same as, but thanks for recognising the fact. Why not just say it man, if I can do it you can

 

[old.Tohtori]

In common is not the same as, but thanks for recognising the fact. Why not just say it man, if I can do it you can

Umm...say what?

This last post totally confuzelled me

 

[kirennia]

I have to say in all honesty, I completely agree and have often thought along the same lines as you say, ignorance being bliss. I don't know you other then on these forums so can't comment on how you see it but being someone with an overly active imagination, I very often find myself wondering and what some people would call wasting days sitting and pondering things like this which shouldn't be more then an instant thought. While bringing interesting conversations to my friends, behind closed doors its very different.

I'm currently at uni having spent 4 years of my life post-sixth form graduation working 12 hour shifts doing basically fuck all good other then cherry-cake, cherry-cake kind of tasks which dulled my mind a great deal and led me to be very unhappy as it's basically a job which doesn't suit me. Uni was a welcome change as I now see it as a way out of the rutt I was in, giving me motives to never have to do that kind of thing again.

I actually enjoy what I do at uni, even though this year I'm basically on bread-line saving mode and have nothing to do but waste time or work. I'll tell you what though, I don't think I could do more then a few years of uni as I'm already starting to find the routine boring. The first month or so when in a new place/year is great... loads of new things to do, people to meet etc etc but eventually it washes out to be routine which leads to stagnation of my life. With the variety that the course brings however, I only usually get back into this around the end of the year which suits me fine.

Each summer I return home and again it's the same story. Even with money to go out 4 days a week, it's still a routine, albeit an obscure routine being that I don't know before the night where I'm going to be going but still...

After uni, My intentions are to go somewhere completely different and basically start a fresh as to stay around here is just going to be a small variation of the same routine.



The reason I say all this is that I have a suspicion you have a similar viewpoint to me whereby you go and do something new and okay it's fun when you start doing it but ultimately it's going to end up being the same old; some find this quickly, others not so quickly but that's the point, everyone is different.

What I think you need is change and not the sort of, I'm going to go and do this with my career now and stick with it, I mean regular change. Some people go on holidays regularly but ultimately, that's just leading you back into another type of routine. I know I need some sort of large break from what boils down to life... earn money, live in house, eat, sleep, go out etc etc. Of course you can't change the fundamentals of some of those things but you can change the way in which you do them.

I really hope that after starting a new job and getting a decent amount of money together It'll start opening more doors as to what I can do with my freetime other then just go out and socialise in normal environments. This summer especially has been a great one because of the variety of things I've done but, no matter how much people say money doesn't equal happiness, it does open more doors to variety...which is the spice of life.


Some of the cleverest reknown people in the world have been the most morbid and depressed individuals even though their jobs seem like a God send to most. Why? Because they're reknown for doing one job and other then freetime they have, essentially they're returning to pretty much the same field day in, day out and once they're famous, they don't change out of fear of losing the money and fame which their job brings.

Of course this is all my own opinion but I think the only way to remain sane in this ludicrously annoying world is to keep variety alive, no matter if it means making worrying decisions. Some find two holidays a year renews what they do and refreshes their mind, others even less (I'm sure everyone has noted the happy old man who regularly visits the same pub week in, week out...it should be envied if they're truly happy), others need more regular change. Maybe that's why I find it so hard to hold down relationships... Intweeging.

Edit: Also note, I don't mean 'clever' in the sponge facts educational sense, I mean it based on plain intelligence.

Also forgot to add suggestions. I don't have any solid answers, it's each to their own and everything. I've started various projects which I'll revisit at irregular times such as learning to play different instruments, brainstorming ideas for fun, obscure outtings (not gonna give ideas here), I've even been writting and adapting a book for the past 3 years (due for release 2050!). I've even stopped drinking apart from special occasions as it's grown tiresome Just make sure you don't start anything which is going to require regular, large chunks of time otherwise if you're like me, you'll end up dropping them part way through (getting fit was a classic for me, heh).

 

[Imgormiel]

Aye with the, you know and the, well...what i need is a good, decent, local goddess. But somehow, always end up with a long distance goddess with some mental problem

Nice good start Toht, I have that problem too and eventually it will eat you - the problem that is. I don't believe my values irl need tweeking for the sake of sychophancy or just plain altruism. I joined a dating site and tbh I have found a lot of interest and as sceptical as I was at first, I was pleasantly surprised.

Although I don't think this is the remedy and that you should be able to find someone who is close by, it is alot easier when you are away from home than when you are at home which again is fucked up.