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I am writing this while waiting for the condensation to clear away on the mirror, so that i can have a shave before i go out. The reason for writing this is unknown to me, perhaps I would like to see how it has effected other people. I shall start from the beginning, this is a long post.
This will show a past daoc addiction and how it effected my life and how i tried to deal with it and at times subcummed to it, i will try to give a most honest appraisal as possible.
The Beginning
I was 16 years old when i first heard of Daoc, it was about april time during my GCSE's year, i read a review in PC gamer and an article about a persons experience in daoc and he described it as another world set in a fantasy setting. It looked really interesting and thus i bought it. I made an Armsman known as Soulkeeper, i only got to lvl14 (which took about 3 weeks) before i quit as i felt that it could get addictive, and i had important exams coming up.
And so april turned to may, that eventually became october, I got good Gcses's with averages of A. I then moved into my first year of Alevels, at this time I had a good friendship group and was beginning the phase of going to house parties and getting very drunk and the whole girls thing etc. Then in october i probably made the biggest mistake of my life, i had this urge to start daoc again.
The Start of something bad
So i made a charechter called Rdaneel, a wizard, i was in a guild called <The Dragon Fighters> it was probably one of the best guilds of the time for what it tried to do, it had a great atmosphere and everynight would be a diffrent event, focussed around lvling or some kind of epic raid. This is when my daoc time started to rise rapidly, i would start playing 4 hours a night when i got home from school, instead of going out. At this point in december time roughly it wasnt realy noticed to much and i still manged to keep weekends for friends, and my schoolwork wasnt too badly effected yet.
Anyway after some annoying experiences of getting ripped by enemy assasins i decided to make an infiltrator, called Samildanach. I got the char to lvl50 shortly after SI was released. With a total play time of summin like 22 days, which i guess was accumalated over a 4-5 or so month period (pretty sad really). my playtime was maintaned at the same lvl, with prolly about 25-30 hours a week, As the days turned longer it became increasinly sad to be at my home rather than go out with friends.
Around roughly april-may time my teachers noticed a diffrent attitude in behaviour and started getting pissed off at me, Also i began to put on weight, about 3 stone roughly over the year period from when i first discovered daoc, I got more shy around girls and a bit less confident in myself. Ofcourse at exactly the same time i was developing a bigger and bigger ego in Daoc, and becoming one of those classic Ego 1337 twat kids that we see so much.
The Addiction becomes dominant
Around may, my guild <the dragon fighters> disbanded and i joined a guild known as <The Brethren> this was a good guild and focusssed a bit on rvr, which at the time in Albion very few guilds did, I think only BF and FC had any kind of reputation for rvr. My infil became RR6, then i decided to make a grp friendly char for RVR, so i made a reaver, this was fun and it also got to RR6. This is where i probably reached my saddest point in Daoc, by the time i i got rr6 on the infil and had my reaver it was summer time.
For about a period of 9-10 weeks i was on 200krp or more a week, which was quite alot back then, there would be days where ild spend about 12 hours a day on daoc and itld be all ild do. This was during the summer holiday period and slighly before, While many of my friends were going out going to parties ild often stay at home playing daoc. This is not to say that i didnt go out, i still had friends and sometimes went out but nowhere near as much as i culd and shuld have.
After summer, Second year of Alevels-a chance to get away
I realised i had problems with daoc, after being in a perpetual state of Denial for the past 8 months or so, It was early September where i decided to quit daoc, I sold my account for 150 pounds sterling and i stopped playing.....
this lasted for 2 months, the pull was too strong, i came back and i made a cleric. I discovered that my guild <the brethren> had made a PBAOE ice group, that was getting quite well known in the rvr world. I though a cleric wuld be best class to help along with it. The players in the group were already fairly extablished, but by my sheer play time and the fact that i was a good player forced my way into the group.
Daoc was very enjoyable at this time, we started getting a repuation, people knew of me as a good cleric, and as a 17 yr old at the time i loved it, while ofc irl was a bit bit difffrent. I was losing contact with a few friends (though that is regained now) and I was hardly excelling myself or enjoying life to the full. So i contined to play alot, almost everyday atleast 4hours, unless summin really special happened.
Toa got released, and ofc we being any setgrp powered our way through TOA, playing obscene amounts, at this time the 1337 surrounding our pbaoe grp came to a head, and we ended up disbanding The Brethren and made a new guild called <New Order> there was quite alot of press about this at the time on BW/FH. So we got through TOA and played lots of RVR.
July came, i did my Alevels (got pretty bad results) and at the same time we decided to roll Midgard. So we spent much of the summer toa'ing through it, it was faster this time ofc. However i had university looming over me and come september, i left for Uni, with my newly made berserker only at RR5.
A Break from Daoc-Uni
Due to getting much worse Alevels than predicted, i did not do an economics course at Surrey Uni but instead did an Ancient history course at Kent Uni, i always loved History although economics was a more worthwhile degree. At uni there was a firewall, so i was unable to play DAOC. my adddiction was strong and i did yearn for daoc. However i was a good social life at uni, but just the wrong type. As i went through clearing i was a bit unlucky i guess with who was in my house, I got into a bit of a heavy stoner/weed smoking crowd. I did hardly any work and just smoked weed with my mates and didnt really do much else. I got back in December, and was realistic about my future, i decided to leave Uni, this was a really big decision, as Kent is a good uni and i prolly wuldnt have the opportunity to go back to as a good a uni in the future. The motives for my decision was the fact that ild prolly get a crap degree due to lack of effort and my social grp, and the degree wasnt that useful. I think it would be nieve to think that daoc didnt have some kind of influence.
Post University, wondering the unknown
So it was the 12th of januray 2005, exactly 2 years ago. ofc after getting home i didnt really know what to do after Uni, so i looked for a job and started playing daoc again ofc, on my berserker. It was inital with the <Pure Vison> people, who was New Order players from Alb, however in end of jan they decided mainly to go and play WoW, i didnt want to play so i decided to play on. This was in the aftermath of NF, where many of the old guilds had disintegrated or changed. I ended up being reunited with many of the old players form <The Dragon Fighters> i joined the guild <Valravens>. This was fun, we more or less started a group from scratch, and this time i was part of the start, and didnt come in mid way through when it was already extablished. We turned the guild into one of the best in Midgard, Groove was the best, and i think it was VR,VP, and Defiance who were considered a similar standard more or less. People wanted to join our guild and we began to get a reputation, i was realy enjoying this. And the duo of Korgon/Fujiwara was feared and renowned through the server. this period went on from about feb-june.
In january after my guild collapsed i originally wanted to join <Groove> as they were the best guild in the realm/server possibly. However i was turned down as i was only rr5 and didnt have such a huge rep, although i was well known from my Cleric Subedai. However in June i got offered to join groove, in combination with me falling out with the gm i joined Groove with my Zerk friend Fujiwara. We had an awesome group of players and for a period of about 3 months we absolutely dominated RVR, and with our strongest group out were undoubtly the best on the server for a while. I felt at this point i had reached the top of daoc, i was considered 1 of the best players and was in 1 of the best guilds, over 3 years of daoc had come to this. Was it worth it, No not really.
Meanwhile in RL i was still looking for direction, i got a job at my parents soap factory where i was working with my best mate irl, it was i guess, a nice 6 months of my life. Was easy, I went out a bit more, and due to working 9-5 my daoc time was controlled more. However it was still a relatively sad thing for someone who was then 19 to be doing. So it was July the 21st, i decided to log onto the british airways website. I booked myself a flight to Thailand that would leave on 27th september and return just before Xmas.
Travelling an making up for lost time
Booking that flight was undoubly the best thing ive ever done in my life. In 3 months of travelling i forgot about daoc, regained lost social skills and had a fantastic time. I not only went to thailand but decided to travel throughout much of south east asia, this was really fun and at the same time i lost the weight that i had put on through daoc. When i returned in December, i was a diffrent person, but daoc was not forgotten, but it was almost gone.
The Classic Daoc and learning control
So i returned from travelling, with a much greater direction in my life, i was going to be a Foreign Language teacher, this meant i could live and work almost anywhere on the planet and thus be travelling at the same time. However i could not start immediately, as i had to wait till april to do the course. So for 4 months i played on the US classic with old friends from New Order, it was fun but i didnt play much, i could control my playtime alot more, I was learning discipline. Then came April, i had to live in London for 4 weeks, where i was on an intensive course. From may i played a tiny bit of daoc for a month, with a set grp on albion, but that was the last time i played. Come June i had a teaching job in a summer school, it sucked my time away and i had a good social life with the job. Where i forgot about daoc, In September I decidied to live and work in Madrid.
Madrid and away from daoc
So ive lived here for 3 months now, had a great time experiencing a diffrent culture, its been difficult at times as i had to find a job friends and an apartment all at the age of 21. However im beginning to make headway and im really enjoying my life here. Daoc is almost forgotten, i think i wuld maybe play, but its very difficult due to having no freee time, so its best i dont and i doubt i will also. I feel i have recovered from the worst of daoc when i was 17, the friends i knew back then are all fine now and i dont feel difficult around then as i may have back then due to being socially less skillfull.
Overall i feel DAOC has certainly had a negative effect on my life, though not to say i didnt enjoy it, i did enjoy it, i feel there were better paths to take. However it may have led me indirectly to be doin what im doing now, and i do now have clear direction in life.
Anyway thats my life over 4 years of daoc, hope u didnt get too bored.
ciao
This will show a past daoc addiction and how it effected my life and how i tried to deal with it and at times subcummed to it, i will try to give a most honest appraisal as possible.
The Beginning
I was 16 years old when i first heard of Daoc, it was about april time during my GCSE's year, i read a review in PC gamer and an article about a persons experience in daoc and he described it as another world set in a fantasy setting. It looked really interesting and thus i bought it. I made an Armsman known as Soulkeeper, i only got to lvl14 (which took about 3 weeks) before i quit as i felt that it could get addictive, and i had important exams coming up.
And so april turned to may, that eventually became october, I got good Gcses's with averages of A. I then moved into my first year of Alevels, at this time I had a good friendship group and was beginning the phase of going to house parties and getting very drunk and the whole girls thing etc. Then in october i probably made the biggest mistake of my life, i had this urge to start daoc again.
The Start of something bad
So i made a charechter called Rdaneel, a wizard, i was in a guild called <The Dragon Fighters> it was probably one of the best guilds of the time for what it tried to do, it had a great atmosphere and everynight would be a diffrent event, focussed around lvling or some kind of epic raid. This is when my daoc time started to rise rapidly, i would start playing 4 hours a night when i got home from school, instead of going out. At this point in december time roughly it wasnt realy noticed to much and i still manged to keep weekends for friends, and my schoolwork wasnt too badly effected yet.
Anyway after some annoying experiences of getting ripped by enemy assasins i decided to make an infiltrator, called Samildanach. I got the char to lvl50 shortly after SI was released. With a total play time of summin like 22 days, which i guess was accumalated over a 4-5 or so month period (pretty sad really). my playtime was maintaned at the same lvl, with prolly about 25-30 hours a week, As the days turned longer it became increasinly sad to be at my home rather than go out with friends.
Around roughly april-may time my teachers noticed a diffrent attitude in behaviour and started getting pissed off at me, Also i began to put on weight, about 3 stone roughly over the year period from when i first discovered daoc, I got more shy around girls and a bit less confident in myself. Ofcourse at exactly the same time i was developing a bigger and bigger ego in Daoc, and becoming one of those classic Ego 1337 twat kids that we see so much.
The Addiction becomes dominant
Around may, my guild <the dragon fighters> disbanded and i joined a guild known as <The Brethren> this was a good guild and focusssed a bit on rvr, which at the time in Albion very few guilds did, I think only BF and FC had any kind of reputation for rvr. My infil became RR6, then i decided to make a grp friendly char for RVR, so i made a reaver, this was fun and it also got to RR6. This is where i probably reached my saddest point in Daoc, by the time i i got rr6 on the infil and had my reaver it was summer time.
For about a period of 9-10 weeks i was on 200krp or more a week, which was quite alot back then, there would be days where ild spend about 12 hours a day on daoc and itld be all ild do. This was during the summer holiday period and slighly before, While many of my friends were going out going to parties ild often stay at home playing daoc. This is not to say that i didnt go out, i still had friends and sometimes went out but nowhere near as much as i culd and shuld have.
After summer, Second year of Alevels-a chance to get away
I realised i had problems with daoc, after being in a perpetual state of Denial for the past 8 months or so, It was early September where i decided to quit daoc, I sold my account for 150 pounds sterling and i stopped playing.....
this lasted for 2 months, the pull was too strong, i came back and i made a cleric. I discovered that my guild <the brethren> had made a PBAOE ice group, that was getting quite well known in the rvr world. I though a cleric wuld be best class to help along with it. The players in the group were already fairly extablished, but by my sheer play time and the fact that i was a good player forced my way into the group.
Daoc was very enjoyable at this time, we started getting a repuation, people knew of me as a good cleric, and as a 17 yr old at the time i loved it, while ofc irl was a bit bit difffrent. I was losing contact with a few friends (though that is regained now) and I was hardly excelling myself or enjoying life to the full. So i contined to play alot, almost everyday atleast 4hours, unless summin really special happened.
Toa got released, and ofc we being any setgrp powered our way through TOA, playing obscene amounts, at this time the 1337 surrounding our pbaoe grp came to a head, and we ended up disbanding The Brethren and made a new guild called <New Order> there was quite alot of press about this at the time on BW/FH. So we got through TOA and played lots of RVR.
July came, i did my Alevels (got pretty bad results) and at the same time we decided to roll Midgard. So we spent much of the summer toa'ing through it, it was faster this time ofc. However i had university looming over me and come september, i left for Uni, with my newly made berserker only at RR5.
A Break from Daoc-Uni
Due to getting much worse Alevels than predicted, i did not do an economics course at Surrey Uni but instead did an Ancient history course at Kent Uni, i always loved History although economics was a more worthwhile degree. At uni there was a firewall, so i was unable to play DAOC. my adddiction was strong and i did yearn for daoc. However i was a good social life at uni, but just the wrong type. As i went through clearing i was a bit unlucky i guess with who was in my house, I got into a bit of a heavy stoner/weed smoking crowd. I did hardly any work and just smoked weed with my mates and didnt really do much else. I got back in December, and was realistic about my future, i decided to leave Uni, this was a really big decision, as Kent is a good uni and i prolly wuldnt have the opportunity to go back to as a good a uni in the future. The motives for my decision was the fact that ild prolly get a crap degree due to lack of effort and my social grp, and the degree wasnt that useful. I think it would be nieve to think that daoc didnt have some kind of influence.
Post University, wondering the unknown
So it was the 12th of januray 2005, exactly 2 years ago. ofc after getting home i didnt really know what to do after Uni, so i looked for a job and started playing daoc again ofc, on my berserker. It was inital with the <Pure Vison> people, who was New Order players from Alb, however in end of jan they decided mainly to go and play WoW, i didnt want to play so i decided to play on. This was in the aftermath of NF, where many of the old guilds had disintegrated or changed. I ended up being reunited with many of the old players form <The Dragon Fighters> i joined the guild <Valravens>. This was fun, we more or less started a group from scratch, and this time i was part of the start, and didnt come in mid way through when it was already extablished. We turned the guild into one of the best in Midgard, Groove was the best, and i think it was VR,VP, and Defiance who were considered a similar standard more or less. People wanted to join our guild and we began to get a reputation, i was realy enjoying this. And the duo of Korgon/Fujiwara was feared and renowned through the server. this period went on from about feb-june.
In january after my guild collapsed i originally wanted to join <Groove> as they were the best guild in the realm/server possibly. However i was turned down as i was only rr5 and didnt have such a huge rep, although i was well known from my Cleric Subedai. However in June i got offered to join groove, in combination with me falling out with the gm i joined Groove with my Zerk friend Fujiwara. We had an awesome group of players and for a period of about 3 months we absolutely dominated RVR, and with our strongest group out were undoubtly the best on the server for a while. I felt at this point i had reached the top of daoc, i was considered 1 of the best players and was in 1 of the best guilds, over 3 years of daoc had come to this. Was it worth it, No not really.
Meanwhile in RL i was still looking for direction, i got a job at my parents soap factory where i was working with my best mate irl, it was i guess, a nice 6 months of my life. Was easy, I went out a bit more, and due to working 9-5 my daoc time was controlled more. However it was still a relatively sad thing for someone who was then 19 to be doing. So it was July the 21st, i decided to log onto the british airways website. I booked myself a flight to Thailand that would leave on 27th september and return just before Xmas.
Travelling an making up for lost time
Booking that flight was undoubly the best thing ive ever done in my life. In 3 months of travelling i forgot about daoc, regained lost social skills and had a fantastic time. I not only went to thailand but decided to travel throughout much of south east asia, this was really fun and at the same time i lost the weight that i had put on through daoc. When i returned in December, i was a diffrent person, but daoc was not forgotten, but it was almost gone.
The Classic Daoc and learning control
So i returned from travelling, with a much greater direction in my life, i was going to be a Foreign Language teacher, this meant i could live and work almost anywhere on the planet and thus be travelling at the same time. However i could not start immediately, as i had to wait till april to do the course. So for 4 months i played on the US classic with old friends from New Order, it was fun but i didnt play much, i could control my playtime alot more, I was learning discipline. Then came April, i had to live in London for 4 weeks, where i was on an intensive course. From may i played a tiny bit of daoc for a month, with a set grp on albion, but that was the last time i played. Come June i had a teaching job in a summer school, it sucked my time away and i had a good social life with the job. Where i forgot about daoc, In September I decidied to live and work in Madrid.
Madrid and away from daoc
So ive lived here for 3 months now, had a great time experiencing a diffrent culture, its been difficult at times as i had to find a job friends and an apartment all at the age of 21. However im beginning to make headway and im really enjoying my life here. Daoc is almost forgotten, i think i wuld maybe play, but its very difficult due to having no freee time, so its best i dont and i doubt i will also. I feel i have recovered from the worst of daoc when i was 17, the friends i knew back then are all fine now and i dont feel difficult around then as i may have back then due to being socially less skillfull.
Overall i feel DAOC has certainly had a negative effect on my life, though not to say i didnt enjoy it, i did enjoy it, i feel there were better paths to take. However it may have led me indirectly to be doin what im doing now, and i do now have clear direction in life.
Anyway thats my life over 4 years of daoc, hope u didnt get too bored.
ciao
