My Life.

[Will]

But its not depression if you know whats causing it, thats half the problem.

 

[mank!]

I don't know what's caused it, it's just that are some simple ways in which I could sort it out. Not cure it, that's just not possible for me.

Ways of coping with it better, or dealing with particular parts of it anyway, which I don't do because it's too hard, and sitting at home all day is much easier. (Not the reason I quit school)

 

[Munkey-]

for the vast minority intrested in how exactly Munkey ended up in Qatar and why he acts like a twit, here are your answers:

Born May 5th 1987 at Torphin's hospital, lived in Aboyne, Scotland, for approximatley 5 years of my life before moving to Kincardine o'neil for a year, then Qatar, Doha for a year, then Neath, Wales, for a year, then Ewloe, North Wales, for a year, then Farndon, North West England, for four years before finally coming back to Doha where i've been living for coming up to 2 years. My dad (lee) is in the petrochemical industry, hence why I've moved round quite a bit. My mum (viv) potters round the home keeping it warm and clearing up.

Been to about 5 primary schools, life was fine, life was naive. had a great time (i think, cant remember much. all one blur) and 3 high schools where I've been bullied, sorted that out now so life is fine. Live a fairly secluded life, lots of friends but no "friends" as such apart from people living on the same compound as me, bit reluctant to make good friends with people at school as I kind of vary between two or three social groups, not wanting to isolate myself from them. Just starting to learn that it isnt always good to stick your hand up when the teacher asks a question, asking for more work etc.

gave my best mate a black eye and punched out his front teeth during my first week of high school ever, which diddnt help much. Then went to a private school for four years, which sucked...elite bastards, was bullied at the time for being a fat bastard and, as a result, doing shit in a smart school, thus the bullies were smarter then me. and now back in semi private/state school which is much better and i'm back down to a decent weight. living out here has done wonders for me so far

dont really smoke, i will if in social situation but not for pleasure. Drugs, done a few which were fun but the downer's were too depressing. Drink, when offered

Doing my GCSE's atm (seperate sciences, Geography, what passes for ICT and History). Do fairly good, if i could be arsed to work harder then i have the potential to do much better (or so they say)

only been in one relationship (which i kind of fucked up but ah well thats life) and now angling round the girls. No fucking luck thou

have two sisters, one at uni and the other being a nurse. the nurse is married to my (now) bro-in-law who works as an infantry officer for the RAF. cool chap he is.

had 8 hamsters, all dead from various causes ranging from cancer to the common cold.

Real name is Justin.

fav film ever is 'Blade Runner : Directors Cut' or 'Minority Report'

found that its fun to draw anime girls (was bored att) and that i'm ok at it. so do that when i'm bored

edit: i play E flat alto saxaphone, taking grade 5 during Summer, used to take two a year. but then i broke my arm, havent been playing much since. Again good, but could be excellent if i practiced (but i hate going over the same pieces and scales over. and over again)

I love music of all sorts, anything thats good I'll like, no matter how whingey whiney or if its some new pop shit. I'll listen to the same song over and over again until i'm sick of it, if its one i like. Fav band in the world, at the moment anyway, is Coldplay. Really want their new album, 'Rush of Blood to the Head', but it hasnt been released here yet (damnit).

I've just passed my Padi Open Water 1 during the Summer, Haven't dived since which annoys me. I love it but i just haven't done anymore. Bit apprehensive as i dont really know anyone well enough to have as a diving buddy. but would be great as there's meant to be baracuda down at Messaieed and a pod of dolphins up at Dukhan. However visiblity will be shite as its bad enough during summer, but it gets really stormy throughout winter here. If i do well in my mock's i might get the chance to do the adventure diving stuff (which would be fantastic, always wanted to try underwater photography)

I love to read anything I can get my hands on. Been an avid reader for most of my life, i can finish books in less than a day and when books out here cost a tenner or more, its kind of halted my reading. Have to ask my sister to bring stuff out each time she comes here for her holidays.

hate Qatar. hate heat. hate the arabs trying to be americans. hate their arrogance etc. absolutley fuck all to do here, no paintball (which i've always really wanted to do) etc. i wanna go back home

</whinging cunt>

and thats bout it. sure theres more but thats private.

 

[mank!]

Oh I missed some stuff out

I've had two relationships, both of which were pretty serious.

First was with Sarah, who was a manic depressive who spent more time in a psychiatric unit than she did out of it. Ended up just not talking to each other for months, and finally she dumped me out of the blue. By this time I didn't care much anymore.

Second was much more serious, with Li (not chinese ) who is a lovely girl who chased me for a long time before we got together. We've always been close friends, and when we got together we were great. She ended up attempting suicide, and as a result got stuck in a psychiatric unit as well (pattern emerging...) so we ended up sort of breaking up. I've met up with her a few times, all of which have been absolutely brilliant. We're just friends now, but I travelled up to see her (she lives in Croydon) about a month ago and spent the night with her. We were probably going to end up together again after the night we had and as a result, she decided she'd tell me to fuck off and never talk to me again. She changed her mind a few days later and apologised. She's very messed up, very depressed annd I'm not sure how much longer she'll be around. I love her so much, since I've been apart from her (relationship wise) there has been one girl at work who was interested in me and she was absolutely gorgeous. I fancy her, still, but I won't do anything about it. I'm too much in love with Li, and I couldn't put anyone through a relationship with me while I still love her so much. Hopefully be seeing her again soon, and we'll finish off some unfinished business from last time

My main interests are computers and music. I don't play an instrument, I've found myself to be completely talentless on that side of thing. Don't seem to have ANY co-ordination at all. My favourite bands (currently at least) are The Cure, The Smiths, Manics and Opeth. Quite a range.

My favourite album is The Holy Bible by the Manic Street Preachers.
My favourite movie is Apocalypse Now.
My favourite book is The Outsider by Albert Camus.
My favourite song (atm) is Love Song by The Cure.

Peace and love!!!!!1

 

[Scooba Da Bass]

Right here goes;

Born September the 23rd 1979 in Lewisham. I've lived here virtually all of my life. Don't really remember anything of my younger life except my little sister being born when I was 2, parents went for a home birth and I took my mother up a dandelion from our garden. Nothing much happened (that I remember) until I changed to secondary school. I live in a shitty area of South East London and my parents were determined that I didn't go to one of the rubbish schools around here. They made me work stupidly hard so I could get into the local independent school. It didn't seem like a big deal to me, made a massive portfolio of work, went to the interview, was interviewed by the headteacher. A crazy crazy crazy old man, who's one question was 'Do you like the headteacher at your primary school?'. I replied 'No' and that seemed to make him happy, since that was the interview done. Sat the test, came home, end of. Got into the school, parents very happy etc.

Secondary school was fantastic, it was an extremely good school that had very high standards. Played Cricket and Rugby seriously in the first year and got into the school teams for both sports. Took me 3 years to become the captain for the Cricket team, a position I held till I left. Rugby I didn't really care about that much about and dropped after a few years. Did Kendo as an 'enrichment activity', studies we had to take outside of school hours, discovered I loved hitting people with sticks, and joined a Kendo dojo in the Elephant and Castle.

My parents had been sending me to a guitar teacher since I was 9, at 11 I got bored and told them I wasn't gonna go anymore. Got into grunge with a mate and we formed a 'band'. That was the start of my music 'career' I guess. At 13 discovered Drum and Bass and after a lot of working and nagging, I received a pair of Technics and a cheap mixer as a combined birthday/Xmas present. That was my spare time stolen. I spent every possible spare minute on them, did a mixtape and got a slot on a local pirate radio station by lying about my age. (I was 6 foot odd at 12, it wasn't that hard). Went from there to playing in clubs seriously by the age of 14/15. Started getting a reputation and began getting invites to big DnB events. At the time DnB was just starting, being part of such an exciting energy filled scene was insane. Part of my reason for success was my parents, both are hippies so I never had a 'curfew' or a time to be back home, the extent of that was 'Don't wake us up if you come home late'. By 16 I was a big name in the London DnB scene, playing every weekend and earning, what seemed to a 16 year old, stupid amounts of money.

Passed my GCSE's in my sleep, got good enough grades without any revision to do the A levels I wanted. Passed onto the 6th form, still DJing, doing Kendo and playing Cricket. Met a girl at 17, she was 18, an American studying here. Fell very very very deeply head over heels in Love with her. Sadly she was a fruit loop. We dated blah blah blah. Towards the middle of my first year of 6th form I was called up to the England under 18 Kendo squad, my proudest moment. Trained with them, took part in championships etc. Twas great. Things continued like that for a year. Did my A Level exams, found them pretty easy, had a summer of dossing around, trying every drug I could get my hands on and wasting loads of saved money. In my last game as Cricket Captain for my school, I ran up to bowl, jumped in and landed funny on my knee, I collapsed in a heap with a big crack. Turns out I sheered all the cartiledge away and dislocated it. Went to hospital, was in the ward for 3 weeks, let out on crutches, I couldn't move the knee without being in agony for about 3 months. Was dropped from the England team, and put on a lot of weight. Got my A level results, they were great, blah blah. Was convinced to move back with my girl to the States. Gave up everything here and moved out. Lived with her in Boston, and Vermont for 8 months. She decided I sucked and started cheating, I put up with it the first few times, eventually, I confronted her and said I couldn't take anymore. Came home.

Got a job in a studio as an assistant, worked my way up for 2 boring years. Met a fantastic girl from Serbia who I'm with, we got engaged happy story etc. Promoted to Sound Engineer earlier this year.

 

[mank!]

You're older than I thought Scoob, cor blimey. Do you still do kendo or anything? I'm curious!

 

[Munkey-]

what exactly does a 'sound engineer' entail doing? just a bit curious as I have no idea wtf i'm gonna do with my life and that sounds intresting

 

[Wilier]

Born to Margaret and Terry on 13 March 1971. Sister Nicola (34)

Lived in Scunthorpe all my life, school was easy and I didnt try (probably could have done much better if I had).

Lived in a small village outside Scunny, pretty sheltered I guess until comprehensive school where I was popular, but never a favorite. I was the cheeky little twat that everyone liked, but also wanted to kill.

Apprenticeship at British Steel, where I met some really good friends. between 18 and 21 did more drugs (in order of appearance: Speed, LSD, Ecstacy, Coke) than I could really afford. Travelled all around the country going to venue "raves" (Raindance, Telepathy, World Party etc) whilst also taking my Hons degree in Mech Engineering on a part time basis, and racing pushbikes, semi-serious.

At 23 I got a job for Conoco (which is where I am now) in the Shift Maint group. Now Im the leader. Same year I met a Swedish chick called ......, set up a home within about 6 months and still with her now. Also stopped the drugs, since I wouldnt be able to work here if I got a positive test. Started racing bikes serious.

Found Half-life, found CS, found Barrysworld.

Had kids.

The end.

 

[FatBusinessman]

Right, here goes...

Born Feb 19, 1984 in Barhill, Cambridge. Moved into Cambridge proper when I was about 5 months old. Lived here ever since.

Went to a smallish primary school in Cambridge. Made some friends, but was bullied and generally led a rather sheltered childhood (which seems to be the norm on this board...). Continued getting bullied well into secondary school, until about Year 10. Didn't have many good friends, and didn't really enjoy secondary school that much.

Then went to sixth form. Loved it. Now studying Computer Science at Queens' College, Cambridge.

On the heart-pouring side, have only had the one girlfriend, but we have remained very close friends to this day.

 

[shadow`]

Once when I was in Hawaii, on the island of Kauai, I met a mysterious old stranger. He said he was about to die and wanted to tell someone about the treasure. I said, "Okay, as long as it's not a long story. Some of us have a plane to catch, you know."
He stared telling his story, about the treasure and his life and all, and I thought: "This story isn't too long." But then, he kept going, and I started thinking, "Uh-oh, this story is getting long."
But then the story was over, and I said to myself: "You know, that story wasn't too long after all."

I forget what the story was about, but there was a good movie on the plane. It was a little long, though.

 

[Xtro]

edit : deleted post - cage convinced me that posting on here is just a waste of time and effort

 

[.cage]

Those filthy commies kidnapped me, and made me live off bread and dirty water in the name of communism! I made my escape but was lost in russia, I managed to flee onto a nearby boat and ended up back home.

 

[.cage]

 

[Nylex]

Originally posted by FatBusinessman
Now studying Computer Science at Queens' College, Cambridge.

What's it like?

 

[Scooba Da Bass]

Originally posted by mank!
You're older than I thought Scoob, cor blimey. Do you still do kendo or anything? I'm curious!

I still do it casually, not much time for it now which is pretty bad, plus I still have a few problems with my knee which means more strenous activities tend to end up with me in pain for a few days.

Originally posted by Munkey-
what exactly does a 'sound engineer' entail doing? just a bit curious as I have no idea wtf i'm gonna do with my life and that sounds intresting

It's a pretty hard job to describe. Basically your job is to take a band, and translate their ideas into a recording. You will be expected to run a recording session from start to finish, initially that means setting up a room for the most appropriate sound, micing up everything that needs it. Encouraging a band to play at their best, recording to the most appropriate medium and then editing the recordings to a way that will satisfy both the band and whatever the expectations of the recording company may be. Practically you need to be good with people, extremely dedicated to the job as musicians like all creative people don't work to a clock. I've been on sessions that have lasted 48 hours at a time. An eye for electronics is also a big help as you will end up with things going wrong. I wouldn't recommend it as a casual career choice unless you're sure that you can stick out 3/4 years of apprenticeship before you're allowed to do the exciting stuff.

Despite a lot of the above being negative, it is a fantastic job.

 

[djpringle]

I was born in Hampshire in 73 but dragged off to deepest darkest Dorset in 77, been there pretty much ever since.

School days weren't very eventful, never bullied, did quite well blah blah but dropped out in the sixth form and joined BP as an instrument technician apprentice. Then spent the next four years at college in Aberdeen and Middlesborough with liberal sprinklings of work experience offshore in the North Sea and at Wytch Farm in Dorset.

In 94 ended up as a instrument tech doing mundane maintenance jobs at Wytch. Did this for a couple of years until I joined the operations team and learnt how to open valves, sit around and drink copious amounts of coffee

Nothing much happened until the start of this year when I transferred to Vietnam to join a team building an ickle gas rig in the middle of the South China Sea. It's finally built and I'm on a cushy 3 week on 3 week off rota and spending my free time travelling around the country with my Vietnamese girlfriend of 5 months.

 

[whipped]

Ok, you've all seen the pic in the post your mugs thread, so I may as well recount my life as well.

Born September 26th 1977 in Plymouth. Lived there with my Mother and Father (Who are still together) and my sister who is 3 years my junior, and used to pinch me a lot. Got a spectrum when I was 7.

Primary and Secondary school were a time for bullying (Glasses, skinny and the name of Kevin are all to easy for a bully to take advantage of). Had some good friends in school though, so the bullying never scarred.

Went to college to do a GNVQ rather than A levels (Although I ended up getting a B in Computer Science A level). Started Aikido and met my best friends. Played an awful lot of D&D and at 20 started dating a 25 year old woman for 2 years. Dumped her for current girlfriend/fiancee when I turned 23.

Moved to Luton to go to University at 18 because a girl I fancied had gone there. Got to uni and the girl had quit and moved back home. Made lots of friends at uni and moved house more times that I can remember. Finished degree with a 2:2 (Drinker's degree) and got a job working at the University in the IT department. Have worked my way up to Senior Computer Technician in 2 years and girlfriend, who was from Plymouth, is now doing a degree here. Moving in together next year.

 

[xane]

I was born. I have yet to die. I am currently somewhere inbetween them. I'll be sure to let you know if anything interesting happens, really.

 

[old.D0LLySh33p]

Trems - what have you done?

Now I feel like I know 'something' about these other people.

:O

ps. I forgot to mention I swam for England

(I'll keep on adding bits of my life as I see fit).

 

[danger]

Real name: Alex
DOB: 11/3/84
Born to the brilliant parents and have one older sister who's just finished a degree in performing arts in edinburgh.

I was born in warwickshire England... had a great childhood for 3 years had a load of friends enjoyed life until my dad got made redundant and I was suddenly uprooted and moved to Cardiff, settled in well in my new primary school friends wise although I was showing serious signs of underachievement academically... My parents made me take a load of IQ tests and things and it turned out I was apparently intelligent and it was the school wasn't pushing me hard enough... In their infinate wisdom they moved me to a much more "academically rigorous" primary school full of snotty rich kids who didn't particularly like me and ridiculously strict teachers who used to keep me in practically every break time and lunch because I hadn't done enough work... life was shit until I started high school.. I made new friends and everything started to pick up.. I was pretty much a class A geek but seemed to get away with it got in 2 early fights and held my own so I didn't really get picked on... I didn't really have much self confidence and come 96 spend as much time as I could playing quakeworld (only blighted by having to pay the bloody phone bills).... Things were good though I passed my GCSE's with flying colours....

Then came 6th form... I caught glandular fever early on and it really hampered my progress.... Come the end of lower sixth my life took the biggest turn ever...

I started seeing a girl I was crazy about... it just seemed like everything was so perfect I was dancing on the ceiling for the 4 months we were together till...

boom she ditched me for someone I worked with... I took it very badly.. this combined with the fact my AS levels were poor I found myself throwing up before going to school each morning, I stopped eating and I lost 3 stone in 3 weeks and things seriously looked bad... I spend a year on anti depressants had one failed suicide attempt... but with the help of some great friends I pulled through it..... I've been off the drugs now for 4 months. I find I'm generally much more relaxed about life although I'm still hesitant about entering into new relationships.

I'm now neither on a peak or a trough but riding happily in the middle, I'm resitting upper 6th to make up for the last year and I'm hoping to study computer science at exeter next year..

It's wierd opening up quite like this... ... but gotta say nice1 trem for starting this whole thing... doubt I'd of revealed any of this if you hadn't had the guts to just go for it... kudos!

 

[Tom]

Hmmmm, I ain't gonna be quite so candid as some people here, so here is a brief history of the life of Tom.

Born June '72, younger and elder sister. Lived near Bury.
Parents still married, they get on fine now we've all left home
Primary and Secondary school great, lots of friends (3 of whom I still see)
Went to 6th form college, then Salford College for 5 years.
Quit my HND course about 3 months before the exams, to get work experience as a video cameraman at a cowboy outfit.
Met my business partner there, who was doing same.
Slogged guts out for 3-4 years, buying equipment and making contacts. Bought a Vauxhall Carlton, then upgraded to a Volvo 850, then to a V70, and now an Audi A4.
Bought a house last September.
Became skint doing it up.

Regular work includes F1 Digital camerawork, Soundman on Tonight with Trevor McDonald, various daytime telly programmes, also F1 related camerawork, and soundman on 3 WRC events this year. I was the soundman on a Bill Kenwright interview just yesterday (BBC Football Focus), live from Goodison Park. 4 hours work for 3 minutes of television hehehe. It's a well-paid job though.

No girlfriend atm (although I'm working on that one). Business partner very badly injured on Rally of New Zealand (he's doing ok but still on crutches). Getting some nice jobs in.

Future looks nice, if I can get my mortgage paid off in 15 years rather than 25 (realistic honestly), I will be the cunt driving around in a Jaguar XK by then.

 

[danger]

Ok sorry for the boring long story bout some cunt who got fucked up over a stupid bitch

Just thought I'd add some interests:

Apart from computers I spend alot of time playing guitar... I've played in a few bands as lead guitarist and also rythm/vocalist but I'm between them at the moment...

I like most forms of music but I'm mainly a rock/metalhead.. my fave bands include Matchbox 20, Powderfinger, Guns n Roses, Tool and Alice in Chains.

I love football and also cricket.. massive Chelsea fan and usually go to stamford bridge 4 or 5 times a year with me dad

 

[mank!]

Danger - anti-depressants really are the most useless thing in the world, they've done nothing at all to me. No effect whatsoever :\ Also, Tool are great. I like you

Xtro - post it again, just ignore cage's funny posts. Usually I find his randomness funny but this is a serious thread dammit! One that's managed to stay on topic for 3 pages too!

Whipped - we didn't get the story about the picture?

It seems that most people here were bullied at school, lived a sheltered life and have been depressed at some point. Fair few of us been fucked over by women too. Odd. Cést la vie!

 

[old.D0LLySh33p]

Well if it's any consolation peeps were scared of me at school probably because they thought I was mental... ha ha!

And I haven't lived a sheltered life.

But screwed over by women? Yes! That's me too!

 

[danger]

Originally posted by mank!
I don't know what's caused it, it's just that are some simple ways in which I could sort it out. Not cure it, that's just not possible for me.

Ways of coping with it better, or dealing with particular parts of it anyway, which I don't do because it's too hard, and sitting at home all day is much easier. (Not the reason I quit school)

Ahh I feel for ya... depression doesn't have to have a psychological cause like mine or trems... simply a lack of the neuro transmitters serratonin and noradrenalin can make you feel that low, well it's this that causes depression just it can happen for no reason like you, because there is a genuine problem like trem or you perceive there are problems like my case....

I really hope you get better soon mate! Prozac didn't do anything for me apart from make me sleep for 15 odd hours a day... they moved me onto cipromil after that which could of had an effect I'm not sure.. I'm better but wether it's due to the drugs or help from my friends / councelling I don't know!

good luck.

 

[FatBusinessman]

Originally posted by mank!
Danger - anti-depressants really are the most useless thing in the world, they've done nothing at all to me.

I think it depends on the person taking them. I know someone who appears to have been helped quite a bit by anti-depressants, but I'd say they're no more than a temporary solution for anyone.

 

[FatBusinessman]

Originally posted by Nylex
What's it like?

Hard work, but fun. Possibly a bit too "mathsy", but it's a good course.

 

[echo]

Born July 19, 1985 to Janet and Brian (still together, great mum & dad) with an older brother Mark (in the RAF as a loadie).

Nothing of interest at all has happened to me Sort of drifted through school, got alright-ish GCSEs (mostly C) and currently doing second (A2) year of Sixth-Form, standing on CCC. Love music, Manic Street Preachers, Guns N' Roses, Clash, Field Mice, Trembling Blue Stars, Nirvana and so on.

Hoping to be involved in the music industry in some capacity when I'm older (ultimate dream is to run an Indie Label in the vein of Sarah / Shinkansen Records), but obviously that'd be quite far down the road.

Currently deciding not to apply to Uni, and go for a music-industry-stylee course at a college somewhere (i'll start looking into that one in a week or three), and listening to 'Estranged' by the Gunners.

I "Play" (if you can call it that) Rhythm guitar on and off with my mate's band on a few bits and bobs ('Revol' being my speciality).

..and I have 2 dogs, and have had 3 hamsters, the proverbial shitload of fish, a rabbit and so on... I'll edit this if I think of any more



//edit: ho ho, missed about my girlfriend, half-Irish girl called Bernadette, she shares the same music tastes as me, is a good laugh and I love her to bits Been going out with her just over a year now

 

[mank!]

Thanks Danger, I've got kind of complacent feeling like this that's the problem. About sleeping 15 hours a day, is that down to the prozac? Come to think of it, I can sleep for that long for no reason too. Even if I'm not tired :|

FBM - As far as it goes for me anti-depressants aren't going to do shit, even if they worked. I'm currently having Cognitive Behavioural Therapy which is very... odd. I'm not keen on it, and I can't work out whether or not it's making me more confused about the way I think or if I'm realising that the way I think is fucked up

 

[danger]

Originally posted by mank!
Danger - anti-depressants really are the most useless thing in the world, they've done nothing at all to me. No effect whatsoever :\ Also, Tool are great. I like you

Xtro - post it again, just ignore cage's funny posts. Usually I find his randomness funny but this is a serious thread dammit! One that's managed to stay on topic for 3 pages too!

Whipped - we didn't get the story about the picture?

It seems that most people here were bullied at school, lived a sheltered life and have been depressed at some point. Fair few of us been fucked over by women too. Odd. Cést la vie!

Ok read this after my last post Sorry I only read trems post before hitting reply the first time... he really inspired me

As for anti-D's being useless I'd probably agree... although councelling helped in my case...

As for tool being great.. THEY ROCK + i like you Saw them live at ozfest earlier this year they were great... lateralus is such a great album (as are undertow and Aenima )

I'd post a pic but I'm using my dads comp as mine is still in pieces on the floor of my bedroom... despite having access to both TdC and will's infinate wisdom

This is a cool thread BTW!