old.Tohtori
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EDIT: Actually forget it.
old.Tohtori
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On hindsight, if Vasc did get offended or felt what i said was out of line, i do apologise.
If others feel like it, well, doesn't really matter now does it
If others feel like it, well, doesn't really matter now does it
Marc
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On hindsight, if Vasc did get offended or felt what i said was out of line, i do apologise.
If others feel like it, well, doesn't really matter now does it
Nicely backtracked.
next time just keep your mouth shut
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Well, it's been a very long and hard week but at least this weekend the insomnia has gone (not totally tho).
Ive read all of your comments guys. Thx for the support. Almost all of you have 100% true and valid points.
As some of you said, the therapist confirmed what I suspected, the girl, while being tremendously atratictve for me (not in the physical way), is just antoher variable of the equation. It was just a matter of time, if not now and her, it would have happened later and with another name and face. She just happened to trigger something that was already ther for some months: I was unhappy with my way of life, prolly cuz I considered it was very trivial (in all aspects of life) and didnt "complete" me at all.
The therapist called it an "existencial crisis". And curiously, it has nothing to do with me turning 30. It can happen to any1 at any age.
I know its not going to be easy to move forward, but at least now I know i have reached the bottom and its just a matter of slowly climbing out of this pit.
Last friday I received a surprising trivial sms from her, telling me that she has been watching some photos from a wedding I attended with some mutual friends, that they were cool and that I looked very good with my Carrera sunglasses (talk about trivial stuff). It was like a punch in the face. I dont know if shes playing some kind of game with me, shes not sure about her or she just wants to be friends despite what I feel for her and what we did. Thing is, despite shes not making it easier even when she might suspect my situation, Im slowly moving towards the point where I dont fucking care anymore, whatever will be, will be.
Still, sometimes this "void" feeling in my stomach, like if I had a blackhole inside me, returns. This morning when I woke up it was there. Hopefully, a good breakfast and some work out in the gym (jeez, working out everyday is turning my body into Conan's.. honest!) took the feeling away.
Cheers!!!
Ive read all of your comments guys. Thx for the support. Almost all of you have 100% true and valid points.
As some of you said, the therapist confirmed what I suspected, the girl, while being tremendously atratictve for me (not in the physical way), is just antoher variable of the equation. It was just a matter of time, if not now and her, it would have happened later and with another name and face. She just happened to trigger something that was already ther for some months: I was unhappy with my way of life, prolly cuz I considered it was very trivial (in all aspects of life) and didnt "complete" me at all.
The therapist called it an "existencial crisis". And curiously, it has nothing to do with me turning 30. It can happen to any1 at any age.
I know its not going to be easy to move forward, but at least now I know i have reached the bottom and its just a matter of slowly climbing out of this pit.
Last friday I received a surprising trivial sms from her, telling me that she has been watching some photos from a wedding I attended with some mutual friends, that they were cool and that I looked very good with my Carrera sunglasses (talk about trivial stuff). It was like a punch in the face. I dont know if shes playing some kind of game with me, shes not sure about her or she just wants to be friends despite what I feel for her and what we did. Thing is, despite shes not making it easier even when she might suspect my situation, Im slowly moving towards the point where I dont fucking care anymore, whatever will be, will be.
Still, sometimes this "void" feeling in my stomach, like if I had a blackhole inside me, returns. This morning when I woke up it was there. Hopefully, a good breakfast and some work out in the gym (jeez, working out everyday is turning my body into Conan's.. honest!) took the feeling away.
Cheers!!!
yeah just keep yourself occupied, if working out and turning yourself into the terminator is what it takes then that's not a bad side effect lol think of the people who turn to eating for comfort!!!
And don't even try and work out her motives for doing anything, thats her business just ignore it and concentrate on yourself.
xxx
And don't even try and work out her motives for doing anything, thats her business just ignore it and concentrate on yourself.
xxx
old.Tohtori
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It's a slippery slope to go that road, next thing you know you'll be running away from the person with scissors since it makes you run faster
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In regards to the txt she sent you, maybe it's guilt and just trying to be nice? Fuck knows, I don't understand women at all, they are all barmy in my experience!
I'd suggest keeping contact to a minimum (zero could be difficult due to work) as I find that often helps, lets you put it to the back of your mind and move on.
I'd suggest keeping contact to a minimum (zero could be difficult due to work) as I find that often helps, lets you put it to the back of your mind and move on.
old.Tohtori
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Simple text; "If you want me, tell me, if not, stop the mindgames. It's either or, friends or more."
Men always claim women are "hard to figure out", but f*ck me sideways and call me betty...men don't know how to say things straight these days.
Things like "Are you saying there might be an offchance of something mroe" gives too much wiggle room. Hit straight and hard. The answer might not please you but you'll sleep like a baby.
Stop being so female men and talk straight, saves a lot of time.
Oh and while i'm on the subject; Women start taking thigns men say AS IS without any hidden meaning. Unless your man is *points above* example there of.
Men always claim women are "hard to figure out", but f*ck me sideways and call me betty...men don't know how to say things straight these days.
Things like "Are you saying there might be an offchance of something mroe" gives too much wiggle room. Hit straight and hard. The answer might not please you but you'll sleep like a baby.
Stop being so female men and talk straight, saves a lot of time.
Oh and while i'm on the subject; Women start taking thigns men say AS IS without any hidden meaning. Unless your man is *points above* example there of.
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Well, just thought i could do a little update.
This week started in the hard way. Having to see her just 10m in front of my desk and coping with the fact that for her, things are exactly as if nothing happened was rly hard.
However, must admit therapy is going better than I expected. Everyday Im realizing that shes becoming a little more boring than the day before. Also, Im trying as much as i can to keep the distances, stopped replying to her emails and avoiding as much as I can speaking with her. In fact, each day it passes im becoming more and more prone to see her as a bird to "hatefuck" (and laugh at the guy shes dating knowing the kind of nasty things his girl does to jobm8s on a friday nite), tho sometimes the armor im building around me crumbles just with a single smile from her.
On the other side, I'm focusing on me and the real issues triggered by this girl: my unhappiness with my current lifestyle and how it wasnt completing me, and finaly the lack of a goal in my life. Building new dreams and pursuing them its called. Its a thought that comforts me to be honest.
Regards!
This week started in the hard way. Having to see her just 10m in front of my desk and coping with the fact that for her, things are exactly as if nothing happened was rly hard.
However, must admit therapy is going better than I expected. Everyday Im realizing that shes becoming a little more boring than the day before. Also, Im trying as much as i can to keep the distances, stopped replying to her emails and avoiding as much as I can speaking with her. In fact, each day it passes im becoming more and more prone to see her as a bird to "hatefuck" (and laugh at the guy shes dating knowing the kind of nasty things his girl does to jobm8s on a friday nite), tho sometimes the armor im building around me crumbles just with a single smile from her.
On the other side, I'm focusing on me and the real issues triggered by this girl: my unhappiness with my current lifestyle and how it wasnt completing me, and finaly the lack of a goal in my life. Building new dreams and pursuing them its called. Its a thought that comforts me to be honest.
Regards!
This is brilliant, I am so glad you are making progress my dear, speaking to a trained professional really does help doesn't it? I had to say to B2 yesterday to go see someone because he really isn't coping at all, and now it is not my responsibility he needs to speak to someone and seeing that you have had/are having a successful experience with it is really good. I'm glad you are getting there sweetie, it'll take time but keep going
xx