Confusing part of life.

[fettoken]

In a moment in life where i am not sure who i am. What i should do.

Ever since we broke up, i guess i have been searching for something to fill the emptiness. It has not been working.

Have been trying to put her behind. Guess i still put a lot of blame on myself for what happened.

We talk sometimes. Mostly when she needs things. Other times, she acts pretty cold to me. Says she put everything behind. Even tho it was the complete opposite in the beginning. But it is fine.

I have a hard time accepting that people change so fast (well, it has been a couple of months now).

Anyways. I guess i am trying really hard to find someone to be with, just to not have to be alone. But at some point, i guess you have to. They say that when you least expect it (and try), you´ll find someone.
Guess i go on several long walks a week, and feel really really alone. Try to go out to the pub / club alone, but it just gets really confusing, not sure where to go.

Also keep imagining that things would be better if i just flee from all trouble. Move to another country, start over. Find myself. Meet new people. Guess it doent come that easy to me.

What does one do when in this point in life? What can one do? When it just feels empty.

 

[Chilly]

whores

/edit - as in rent them

 

[Raven]

 

[old.Osy]

Not much you can do. Time needs to pass, and you need to allow it.

Eventually, you'll grow out of it - and looking back, you will probably still linger, but you'll also see the flaws and why it wasn't meant to be.

Cheer up bud, there's other fish in the sea.

 

[Punishment]

Loyalty is an important part of any relationship, you have it she didn't, she will do it again consider you got off lightly

 

[fettoken]

Well. I could always count on her in our relationship. But, i was not ready for it. I guess she's careless now. Just wish i could feel the same.

 

[Tom]

Shut up Meg.

 

[old.Tohtori]

Finding someone isn't a surefire thing, people claiming that "keep at it", or "someone is out there", however cynical it may sound, is not a fact. You may or may not find someone, who the f*ck knows.

What you should do is get comfortable with yourself and drop ALL communication with the ex if she's only there to ask for stuff(i mean completely drop comms). You need to get your priorities straight, see what you want and go for it balls first, even if it means getting kicked in the jinglebells. You don't need a journey to the himalaja to do it either, just sit down, write, think, whatever you feel comfortable with and just see what you want. Be it wank all day, or save up for a ferrari.

In the end, there's nothing except you you have to please and when you get comfortable with yourself, you stop trying hard and people will get more comfortable around you too. Ergo, better chances of MAYBE finding someone.

Unless your last name is Bolt, running never solves anything.