Blithering idiots...

[ilaya]

for past 6 or 7 years i been getting anxiety attacks ok. was only diagnosed with them in 2007 tho. now as a consequence, im unable to work because they really are that bad. if i get a bit bored.. chances are i get an anxiety attack.. and this OFTEN happens when im travelling.

now, each year i get an assesment.. which is supposed to be in Gosforth (about an hour away by public transport). given that i can usually travel for about 10 minutes tops without the anxiety levels getting too high, for past 2 years i've had a home assesment.. that is they've sent a doctor here so i dont have to travel and risk it.

this year tho.. even tho i have sent in a letter from my GP saying im unable to travel that far, they are insisting i travel to Gosfoth.. but... THEY GONNA SEND A TAXI!! yay

these pillocks have looked at my questionaire, saw that i get anxiety attacks on public transport and think well.. he should be ok in a taxi. WRONG. only reason i put public transport on the bloody form was i dont drive.. so ofc i use public transport.

if i could travel all that bloody way without problems, i wouldnt be on the fucking sick in the first place.

you would think some common sense would prevail.. but this after all.. is the UK.

 

[Ceixah]

for past 6 or 7 years i been getting anxiety attacks ok. was only diagnosed with them in 2007 tho. now as a consequence, im unable to work because they really are that bad. if i get a bit bored.. chances are i get an anxiety attack.. and this OFTEN happens when im travelling.

now, each year i get an assesment.. which is supposed to be in Gosforth (about an hour away by public transport). given that i can usually travel for about 10 minutes tops without the anxiety levels getting too high, for past 2 years i've had a home assesment.. that is they've sent a doctor here so i dont have to travel and risk it.

this year tho.. even tho i have sent in a letter from my GP saying im unable to travel that far, they are insisting i travel to Gosfoth.. but... THEY GONNA SEND A TAXI!! yay

these pillocks have looked at my questionaire, saw that i get anxiety attacks on public transport and think well.. he should be ok in a taxi. WRONG. only reason i put public transport on the bloody form was i dont drive.. so ofc i use public transport.

if i could travel all that bloody way without problems, i wouldnt be on the fucking sick in the first place.

you would think some common sense would prevail.. but this after all.. is the UK.

dude that proper sucks, if you don't mind me asking what actually happens?

 

[old.Tohtori]

If their papers say public transport, threy are somewhat right to assume that you're fine with non-public, aka taxi, until you correct them.

Ring up, correct their assumption, fix problem.

 

[Dukat]

This title made me nostalgic about the old FH member BI


On topic: Hope ya get it sorted mate - you say it only happens if you get bored? Tried taking a video to watch on your phone or something?

 

[megadave]

get yourself a gameboy with tetris, problem solved

 

[Chilly]

music, drugs, beer, hooker-in-the-back-seat-giving-you-head

plenty of solutions. think outside the box.

 

[georgie]

I wonder whether you'd have to arrange those yourself or whether they'd do it for you.

 

[Vasconcelos]

Tetrazepam and sum1 to awake you when you arrive

 

[mooSe_]

I couldn't play tetris in the back of a taxi, it'd make me throw up

 

[old.Tohtori]

Tetrazepam and sum1 to awake you when you arrive

Tetris shaped medicine pills?!

Take a couple of Z shapes, L shape, then two cubes, a T shape and finish the round with a I shape pill to clear 4 things at once!

 

[mooSe_]

Z shape? Is that a squiggly or a reverse-squiggly?

The Tetris God - CollegeHumor video

 

[Lamp]

morphine 4tw

was given morphine after I had my wisdoms out. Bliss

 

[ilaya]

i phoned em up... turn out my GP sent a letter saying i have problems with public transport.. but ofc failed to mention other forms as well.. dumbass.. guess what i gotta do... go to doctors to get another letter... more public transport sigh..

anyways the suggestions.. gameboys, phones etc... tried em.. works for a few weeks then get used to them and starts all over again

as for what actually happens when i get anxiety attacks.. kinda hard to explain but its a constant nagging thing in back of my mind saying something bad is gonna happen.. every twinge, itch.. is then blown out of preportion in my head.. i then think about it too much and if it gets real bad the only thing i can think of is... YOU ARE GONNA DIE! YOU ARE GONNA DIE etc..

it also has its own little spin offs... such as being crowded by peeps.. find that can start them... being close to tall buildings... wide open spaces (big ones i mean.. like if the bus goes via the coast route i have to avert my eyes), heights (always was afraid of heights but now its even got to seeing OTHER people up heights on tv or in photographs)

tis is very strange thing indeed

 

[Chilly]

they're coming for you

 

[Ezteq]

Sweetie this will sound a bit harsh but I know what I'm on about, I have them, I'm agoraphobic and spent about 2 years housebound as a result of them so it's not like I don't know what I'm talking about but they will not kill you. They are horrible and scarey and vile but you will not die from them Don't let yourself be a prisoner to it there is far too much to do and see out there to spend your whole life trapped by a disfunction of your mind.

I gave myself serious kidney damage by not even being able to leave my room to go to the bhttps://forums.freddyshouse.com/editpost.php?do=editpost&p=3641285athroom, thats how bad it got for me, I made myself physically ill that has had probably perminant ramifications, I missed out on so much real life because I was too damn terrified to leave my room and I'll never get that time back.

OK so going in a taxi is going to be frightening, it's going to be hard but it is not impossible, you will not die if you do it (you might throw up and need to lay down for a few hours but you'll survive). Get someone to go with you, get the doctor to give you a tranq to help you but fgs set yourself a target and do it or you'll end up being completely bound by this and once you get past a certain point (which tbh it sounds like you are either dangerously near, or actually at right now) it's just going to be stupidly hard to get back again.

Go on, you can do this, you can. You don't feel like you can and you will have an anxiety attack but you've had them before and haven't died have you? Please please don't let this rule your life, there really is so much out here that is wonderful. It really does suck, and it is horrible and bearing all this in mind do you really want to spend your whole life like this? You have to take charge and take control of your body and make it do things your mind doesn't want it to do, please don't let it rule you it's such a damn shame and a waste, my thoughts are with you, be brave and just try.

 

[Corran]

Dont get me started on these guys.. seen them from inside, was dismayed at what I saw... seen them from the outside and even more dismayed at what I see.

 

[Corran]

as too damn terrified to leave my room and I'll never get that time back.

OK so going in a taxi is going to be frightening, it's going to be hard but it is not impossible, you will not die if you do it (you might throw up and need to lay down for a few hours but you'll survive). Get someone to go with you, get the doctor to give you a tranq to help you but fgs set yourself a target and do it or you'll end up being completely bound by this and once you get past a certain point (which tbh it sounds like you are either dangerously near, or actually at right now) it's just going to be stupidly hard to get back again.

Do not.. i repeat.. do not get the doc to give you anything to help you.

If the doc gives you something to help you, you attend, you seem to be better, they will strip you of your benefits, you then have to go through much worse to get what you actually are due.

Im still unable to work due to my health, it driving me mad. Went out to get some advice yesterday, slept for 14hrs and today I can barely move as my body is just that worn out from the effort of having to go out.

Dont help that mental exercise greatly increases my fatigue, so everything is hard work. But apparently I am fit for work...simply because a nurse saw me and did not seem to understand what my main illness was and focused on the pain I suffer from... and yet again she ignored I took over double the medication just to cope with getting to the examination.

So by trying to play their game, they often will end up screwing you and then not listening. Shame I got to go to an appeal tribunal with absolutely no help as couldnt find anyone that could do so, missed out on so many things due to the fact that within reading 1 page of an 80 page document Im worn out for the day (such as them saying doctors letter was no good - so now i got to get a new doctors letter with just over a week before the hearing at which they may ignore it because i not got it to them a week before the hearing... yeahy!) and have to hope that the tribunal actually understands the physical and mental aspects of my illness that the dwp totally ignored.

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Funny thing is, the stress from trying to deal with this has set me back many many months and going to take me that much longer to recover and get back to work as I actually want... no money and stuck in a house 24/7 just makes me feel suicidal

 

[Zenith.UK]

I feel for you. I get mild social anxiety in built up areas and large crowds. As long as I can get into a doorway or out of the area, I'm usually able to keep a grip.
My problem is airports. Built-up, large crowds... but not easy to get out of. Add the security that's in your face, and then add firearms and I get full blown panic attacks if I even try to approach an airport. This is a problem because I service till equipment and some of the stores have outlets airside. I have to tell work that I can't do those calls. Thankfully I've not been sent on an airport call for almost 3 years.

I was prescribed oxazepam but I never took it because you can't drive or operate heavy machinery, and driving is a crucial part of my job.

I don't know if this will work for you, but I find having my wife or really good friend along helps keep me grounded. Can you ask a good friend to help out just by being there with you?

 

[ilaya]

ezteq... yeah.. all that stuff is what i have to keep telling myself.. but its difficult, because its like saying to someone... dont think about elephants. VIOLA!! an elephant in the noggin.

like i said tho, getting better... but from here to Gosforth is a HELL of a jump.. gotta be taken gradually, and that in itself causes more problems coz i simply dont have the cash to jump in a taxi and say.. oh drive me around for a bit, or get on a metro and try to get as far as i can.

vicious little circle it is, but thanks peeps for all the advice just hope this will be last time i gotta go thru this assesment crap heh