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old.Tzeentch
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Well, a whole bunch of people probably know by now, that I deleted my chars..
What most of you are asking me though, is why I did so =/
<warning, this might be a 'lot' to read apparently>
Well, to be honest, I feel it was a long time coming.. it was just a matter of when.
It wasn't particularly, any one reason, that led me to to this, it was rather, a whole bunch of things, that just built up over time, and finally took one more, to push me to it.
What can I say?
I had little friends in the game, people I enjoyed speaking to, and conversing with.. that situation has not changed for a long time..
I also often felt my ideas and opinions on various things, were my own only, that is, I didn't find many people who agreed with me.. I found it difficult to play the game this way... not my way.
Like Nilji, I've had.. and possibly still do, a lot of problems with keeping my games and real life issues seperate..
Sure, a lot of you have no problems with it.. well.. I've thrown away three years of my life due to commitments to games and people online.
In those three years, I had plans from high school to get a degree in physics... I lost this chance, dropping out of first year university after 3 months.
I don't intend on going into how I managed to screw the rest of the time up, suffice to say, I'm now here.. doing some networking certifications, and planning on becoming a network admin eventually... a new year, and a new course, and I was pondering about DAoC..
Sure, it can be fun, but, it is a game that requires a few hours to get the fun going.. for me, the enjoyment was in talking to the people, and the reactions to certain situations..
Unfortunately, over time, I found I was grouping less and less with those people I knew in beta as my friends.. I figured it was a level thing.. well, it wasn't.
The time invested just didn't make sense, for what I got back..
I thought about it, and wondered... am I really addicted?
Of course, we all joke about it... but having an addiction, being dependent on something, even it that thing gives you no pleasure.. it is cause for worry for me.
By chance, Nilji had a fight with one of his friends, and when nilji logged, I took the chance to speak with that person, and found out, that Nilji was set upon the same path as I've been on for so long..
Nilji is a great friend of mine.. sure, it may be only 'online', but hey, if it was true, I could not live with myself if I did not follow it up and try to help him.
We spent some time on Thursday night talking about it.. incidentally, it was after a great keep defense, the times when I have most fun, that we spoke.
I felt that it really put the two side by side, what DAoC could offer me, and what something 'real' could give.
Well, I would say it was an emotional moment for both me and Nilji, for myself, it was that after 9 months, something that had become almost a daily routine for me, playing DAoC, I would break that habit.. that I would miss the things that were coming, and the people..
Since then, I realise I am not missing anything.
The happenings are the same, life goes on etc, and it does not affect anything it seems.
Life goes on.
Realise that what I have said for the most part, is my opinion only.
(In no particular order)
Icebreaker: One of the best people I knew in the game.. always there for me, always willing to help and always patient.. I'll miss you bro..
Alderian/Jozen: I was really taken by surprise when you helped me out when I was just pissed off with the guild in general, and left for a while.. since then, I've always had you there to listen to my problems, whatever they were.
Thanks for everything
Eblessair: I'm glad you were around, whenever you were... playing with Clig was always fun, and a pleasure, since you did help me with some things which meant a lot to me.. and I'm sure you have probably forgot, but I have not (how vague can I be? lol )
Matinex/Tyka : Damn shame I never got to know you a lot earlier.. I think we would have had a lot more good times together... I always had fun on all the hunts we did, and the RvR moments we had.. shame it ended in such a fashion... at least you can group with a certain warden all you like now
Blue : One person I am so glad I had the fortune to meet.. I just wish you had played on Exc a bit more, I missed you time to time.. thanks for the guidance you gave me at times
Niljindil: I'm going to be lost for words for a long time, whenever I'm asked to express what your friendship means to me... I hope that our friendship will last for a long time.. hopefully some time or another, I'll finally be able to express myself
To my guild, Celtic Fist: I enjoyed being with you, through everything... you all know I felt that a lot of things could have been done differently, but I still had a great time with you all.
Thanks for having me, putting up with my rants, and helping me with whatever I was having trouble with.. you guys are really something else, and I hope I will manage to stay in contact with you over time.
I just hope that the topic is true for myself.
What most of you are asking me though, is why I did so =/
<warning, this might be a 'lot' to read apparently>
Well, to be honest, I feel it was a long time coming.. it was just a matter of when.
It wasn't particularly, any one reason, that led me to to this, it was rather, a whole bunch of things, that just built up over time, and finally took one more, to push me to it.
What can I say?
I had little friends in the game, people I enjoyed speaking to, and conversing with.. that situation has not changed for a long time..
I also often felt my ideas and opinions on various things, were my own only, that is, I didn't find many people who agreed with me.. I found it difficult to play the game this way... not my way.
Like Nilji, I've had.. and possibly still do, a lot of problems with keeping my games and real life issues seperate..
Sure, a lot of you have no problems with it.. well.. I've thrown away three years of my life due to commitments to games and people online.
In those three years, I had plans from high school to get a degree in physics... I lost this chance, dropping out of first year university after 3 months.
I don't intend on going into how I managed to screw the rest of the time up, suffice to say, I'm now here.. doing some networking certifications, and planning on becoming a network admin eventually... a new year, and a new course, and I was pondering about DAoC..
Sure, it can be fun, but, it is a game that requires a few hours to get the fun going.. for me, the enjoyment was in talking to the people, and the reactions to certain situations..
Unfortunately, over time, I found I was grouping less and less with those people I knew in beta as my friends.. I figured it was a level thing.. well, it wasn't.
The time invested just didn't make sense, for what I got back..
I thought about it, and wondered... am I really addicted?
Of course, we all joke about it... but having an addiction, being dependent on something, even it that thing gives you no pleasure.. it is cause for worry for me.
By chance, Nilji had a fight with one of his friends, and when nilji logged, I took the chance to speak with that person, and found out, that Nilji was set upon the same path as I've been on for so long..
Nilji is a great friend of mine.. sure, it may be only 'online', but hey, if it was true, I could not live with myself if I did not follow it up and try to help him.
We spent some time on Thursday night talking about it.. incidentally, it was after a great keep defense, the times when I have most fun, that we spoke.
I felt that it really put the two side by side, what DAoC could offer me, and what something 'real' could give.
Well, I would say it was an emotional moment for both me and Nilji, for myself, it was that after 9 months, something that had become almost a daily routine for me, playing DAoC, I would break that habit.. that I would miss the things that were coming, and the people..
Since then, I realise I am not missing anything.
The happenings are the same, life goes on etc, and it does not affect anything it seems.
Life goes on.
Realise that what I have said for the most part, is my opinion only.
(In no particular order)
Icebreaker: One of the best people I knew in the game.. always there for me, always willing to help and always patient.. I'll miss you bro..
Alderian/Jozen: I was really taken by surprise when you helped me out when I was just pissed off with the guild in general, and left for a while.. since then, I've always had you there to listen to my problems, whatever they were.
Thanks for everything
Eblessair: I'm glad you were around, whenever you were... playing with Clig was always fun, and a pleasure, since you did help me with some things which meant a lot to me.. and I'm sure you have probably forgot, but I have not
(how vague can I be? lol )Matinex/Tyka : Damn shame I never got to know you a lot earlier.. I think we would have had a lot more good times together... I always had fun on all the hunts we did, and the RvR moments we had.. shame it ended in such a fashion... at least you can group with a certain warden all you like now
Blue :
One person I am so glad I had the fortune to meet.. I just wish you had played on Exc a bit more, I missed you time to time.. thanks for the guidance you gave me at times Niljindil: I'm going to be lost for words for a long time, whenever I'm asked to express what your friendship means to me... I hope that our friendship will last for a long time.. hopefully some time or another, I'll finally be able to express myself
To my guild, Celtic Fist: I enjoyed being with you, through everything... you all know I felt that a lot of things could have been done differently, but I still had a great time with you all.
Thanks for having me, putting up with my rants, and helping me with whatever I was having trouble with.. you guys are really something else, and I hope I will manage to stay in contact with you over time.
I just hope that the topic is true for myself.
